Thursday, June 30, 2005
jieying: wad? no! i wasn't in colorful pants! YOU were in colorful pants lolx. ya la. u noe me how long liao. leopard cant change spots man.
2day geog. whee................9mark qns leave blank! haha. janyz,i confirm will win de bet. i wan absolut =p
ya wanted to share with u all unsophiscated pple out dere who doesn't take lit my source of torture 2days ago. v nice poem la. lyk reali talking to me la. whoa.
To One Shortly To Die-Walt Whitman
From all the rest i single you out, having a message for you:
you are to die--let others tell you what they please, i cannot prevaricate,
i am exact and merciless, but i love you--there is no escape for you.
softly i lay my right hand upon you--you just feel it,
i do not argue--i bend my head close, and half envelope it,
i sit quietly by--i remain faithful,
i am more than nurse, more than parent or neighbour,
i absolve you from all except yourself, spiritual, blodily--that is eternal--you yourself will surely escape,
the corpse you will leave behind will be but excrementitious.
the sun bursts through in unlooked-for all directions!
strong thoughts fill you, and confidence--you smile!
you forget you are sick, as i forget you are sick,
you do not see the medicines--you do not mind your weeping friends--i am with you,
i exclude others from you--there is nothing to be commiserated,
i do not commiserate--i congratulate you.
prevaricate: To stray from or evade the truth.
absolve: To relieve of a requirement or obligation.
excrementitious: Relating to any cast-out waste material.
commiserate: To feel or express sorrow or pity for; sympathize with.
nice nice. =) for analysis,wait till i get back answer key from de teachers =p
hey. you're it. HA. juz keep swimming chipmunk. =p
manchesterunited 11:02 AM
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Wednesday, June 29, 2005
maple story shall be de number one reason if i fail my A lvls. haiz........
de bio pple r as noisy as usual. de lit pple will 1 day take revenge. =p
saw her at j8 2dae with aaron n ed. de 2 of 'em saw de whole bunch of 'em 1st. but she gey siao say nv c me lolx. keep lookin at aaron muz be. haiz...................
tml human geog. last nite got mood to pia 1,bud fell aslp. today no mood la. ltr c how. haiz.............
not a v hapi day la. muz be de rain. n my cut tongue. =(
lvl 12 arch =) nia la =(
manchesterunited 6:22 PM
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Tuesday, June 28, 2005
geog today. i was so ................. outta dis world so as to speak. wasn't dere. drifted anywhere but towards rocks n water. de a7a bunch wasn't as jumpy as i noe 'em to be. exams r gettin us all man.
EVERYONE! CHILL!
not havin maths is gd. =p went to cut hair. tt salon damn farnie la all de characters inside. let ed say until lyk extreme makeover sia. frankly i dunno wad i got myself into lolx.
jan: yup. shhh. =x
fauwaz: ehh ganja expensive la. crysanthemum tea in glass mugs r cheaper. wayy cheaper =)
manchesterunited 7:59 PM
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Monday, June 27, 2005
die.
today had GP n lit. we were aallll soooooooo boorreedd.......... i thot of nice 1 liners from songs. ed thot of new deck idea. lit got 3 papers,i only use 1 string 4 persuasion. coleridge,i used 1 page......filled up 1 page! yea! hahaz..
okay wad follows is wad i wrote on my GP paper 1 cover page.......guess wad songs dey come from lolx..
i was cryin' when i met you. now i'm dyin' to forget you.
hopin' n prayin' for someone to care.
i noe i've got to find some kind of piece of mind. help me please.
i don't wanna be lonely no more. i don't wanna have to pay for this.
and now i'm destined to spent my time missing you.
you were everything, everything that i wanted.
how could the memory so close to me just fade away?
my shadow's only one that walks beside me.
my shallow heart's the only thing that's beating.
sometimes i wish someone out there will find me.
till then i walk alone.
darker days seem to be what will always live in me.
yet still i run.
it's hard to walk this path alone, hard to know which way to go.
will i ever see this day? will it ever change?
you.
doing that thing you do.
breaking my heart into a million pieces.
coz i can try and try to forget you girl, but it's just so hard to do.
every time you do that thing you do.
okay de last 2 lyk damn easy lolx.
saw her at flag raising today.. sorta missed de times when we'll look at each other across so many pple n juz smile n wave n make stupid expressions,esp when dere's a cock-up in de announcements ha.
hmm juz now after gp dere was a jam at de bag area. saw dis guy hu used to be my brother,n i thot of myself. am i now wad he was doin a while ago? juz hounding n refusing to let go,even though it's reali reali gone?
sigh. tml geog. fcuk backside la.......................goin ed's lobang to cut hair ha.after exam la. 10 bucks too. c wad happens tml lolx.
ehh thanks miss kwok! ha. claz secret =)
manchesterunited 7:33 PM
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Sunday, June 26, 2005
okay ed's aren't sad. we were juz lookin 4 a reason to drink. tink we'd hav drunk anyway if i dropped 10 cents down de drain or something. lolx.
boosted today. got a couple of elves,so not so bad. aaron got a foil. terry got a brid of paradise ytd. buay song! =x ha.
i still catch myself thinking bout stuff i told myself not to. argh. reali cut off from all means of communication. ha. i shld giv it up soon to stop being a nuisance. but. at gr8 cost to myself. it's hard.
tink i'll screw up lit again. only hope's othello. n de drama pc on de next paper.
but not seeing importance in mid-yr. everything in life in general ha. wad's de whole blardi point anyway?
studied juz now.....haha ya right. okay u caught me. din do much la ha.
assuming tt i wake up on time tml.....................either wayy i die.....................hahaz.
okay now it's midnight n i juz finished with persuasion notes. haha jansen n jamie's farnie. at least cheered me up 4 a lil while lolx.
wanna slp,but can't slp. oxymoronical. argh.
and now i'm destined to spent my time missing you. bowling for soup rawks. it's becoming my own line hahax.
manchesterunited 7:45 PM
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Saturday, June 25, 2005
shit. i'm so bored i actually thot of studyin voluntarily. die. hahaz.
now at ed's hse typin dis. y am i always here. LOLX. hahaz.
had a drink again. ha. dis time it's ed. dun so sad la bro.
study now. girls come n go la.
i've lost my belief in miracles. dun shut me off la!
manchesterunited 10:06 PM
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Friday, June 24, 2005
argh................juz back from econs exam......so so dead................
n wanna study 4 lit at 1st. but after econs too sian liao. totally givin mid-yrs up man.
juz wanna do anything but study.
mass suicide session after mid-yrs. on boh. go any1's hse,hu has irritating neighbours. gas de blardi place,then we get a lighter............boom........
tt's my life hahaz. welcome!
manchesterunited 2:53 PM
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Thursday, June 23, 2005
ha. guess wad i did in de eve of my mid-yrs.
not study,certainly. if u thot tt then either u dunno me well enuff,or u've come to de wrong page =p
woke up at 11. went serangoon mac. ate lunch with zhong jimin darren. met jieying in mac. n she saw me with my econs text open. actually i nv study at all ha.......
went lil india,robeen's office. haha. did some iq/character test when we were made to tink of how to balance a 500ml bottle on 3 1.5l bottles n 3 wodden chopsticks. actually quite easy lolx. de ventures bonded a lil. tink we bonded more in de pool session after tt ha. =)
then went zhong's hse 4 dinner. damn. wanted to play my fifa street campaign,but jimin dun wanna go play something else. so had to humor him n play dynasty warriors when we had completed everything. sigh.
n now i tink pple won't c me online as often liao la.now my sis has found de wonders on online chatting. n she's on it as much as she can at nite. when most pple r online la. n i hav a v biased n violent dad. n i hav a mom hu doesn't dare go against my dad. wayy cool. now my sis's lyk de com dun spoil she not hapi. not even sleeping,juz to go online. i hav to wait till lyk 1+,2 am to go online sometimes. juz ask ed hahaz.
hope every1's doin decent 4 mid-yrs. my campaign starts tml. n it's not gonna be a smooth kick-off.
n i'm still talking to a wall. haiz. ehh no. at least a wall has some echos. i'm talking to a black hole. LOLX. n i ask myself,why am i still talkin,still tryin. i've no answer. not 1 tt i still dare say out loud anyway. hahaz.
venus's a bitch! n she bites! hahahz.
oops almost forgot. dis' wayy overdue but.............
MR PARK JI SUNG! WELCOME TO OLD TRAFFORD,THE THEATRE OF DREAMS!!!!
i've always admired de south koreans for their mental strength,their endurance,tactical discipline,n de never-say-die attitude. tt's wad got 'em so far in de World Cup.
hmm sis wanna use com. dad's pickin up signals n makin noise liao. continue testimonial 4 mr park n mr van der sar next time. ha.
manchesterunited 9:58 PM
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Wednesday, June 22, 2005
ha. i did absolutely nothing today. yeah................
tml,venture meetin at 12 at serangoon mac.
fri's exam. so blardi fast. seems lik half my frens studied n half tt din. de 1s hu did r freakin me out...argh. any1 hu wanna study lit after econs exam pls contact me ya. i hav a proposition to offer.................lolx. janyz n i were sayin we need to find quotes from de 3 texts being tested. if dere's 1 more person,we can lyk 1 guy take 1 text each,find quotes,n share with de other 2 when it's done............
gd idea ehh? hahaz.
alright registration closed. we hav ed de othello expert now ha. i rather persuasion than coleridge, but i'll let janyz choose la. ladies 1st. ha.
sam: ehh u also virgin of flower mountain la. muz keep ya vow of chasity n not jio gals. lolx.
manchesterunited 7:32 PM
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005
she was everything, everything that i wanted. we were meant to be. supposed to be. but i lost it. how do u make all the memories that's so close to me just fade away? all this time i was self-deluding. so much for my "happy ending".
ear worm! hahaz heard dis song outside. not bad ah,de lyrics tt i edited myself,dey fit in de music lor. maybe i hav a future in dis. hahhahaaz.
wad a day. went sch 1st. taught yr1s stuff..............difference is,i actually studied a lil myself ha.read up on rocks,something i'm always been muddled bout 4 so many yrs since sec3 haha.but i regret skipping de whole industrial geog part in de textbook. ouch,now tt i tink bout it. hahaz.
went j8 4 lunch,met alf fauwaz fawwaz n guo feng at long john while eatin lunch halfway haha. reali lei,fawwaz's rite. i'm not much help to de 2 yr1s hahaz. was quite shaky n unsure when dey ask me qns. had to tink reali reali long n keep flipping textbook. when i'm lyk suppose to noe it cos i did it last yr. sianz!
met up with de guys. beat aaron 3-nil outside toa payoh mrt =p n spent 7 bucks n a rare foil for cards. improved my burn deck i tink.......keep losing to ed................haiz. no accurate. muz play with terry c how 1st.
then play soccer. ha! won de virgins of flower mountain haha. fun fun fun. muz play somemore.
mid-yrs? haha.....lyk i told jamie,maybe can hav some mass-suicide session after mid-yrs. all meet somewhere n eat rat poison tgt or something. hahaz jokin. hope Halon's been studyin ah? haha.sry la,whole of june nv org outing. busy.......haiz. celebrate after. assuming tt dere's something to celebrate bout larz. hahaz.
janyz! jia you on project shhhhs. =)
manchesterunited 1:04 AM
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Monday, June 20, 2005
it juz doesn't feel lik a monday lolx. losing track of time as de exams come near.
mid-yrs. shit.
tried to study a lil today. luckily janyz was arnd. ed n i were brought back on track quite a lot of times. but............still...............hahaz. talked la. damn farnie. ya. janyz's so innocent,it's us 2 evil demons tt's polluting her mind. so evil. devils. i'm red n ed's blue =p
was deleting msgs n clearin my inbox at ed's hse. was encouraged by de 2 pple dere hahaz. 100+ sms-s gone. tt means i owe her bout 5 bucks. hahaz.
damn sad la. suddenly wanna noe de reason. then thot,noe liao so wad. then thot de reason might hurt even more. lyk maybe dere's some1 else. argh. so dun wanna tink bout it. but then still will. sigh.
luckily tml meetin pple. m gonna study yr1 work again.......................hahaz........with diff pple dis time round. LDMR n LRTS killin de yr1s man haha.
then goin cha kway tiao with my magic brudders. maybe gonna sell card. but de pfts will go back to de guy i tink...................hahaz..........not tt i hav specific cards in mind la. but still,dere might be treasure in dis kinda place u noe. lolx.
manchesterunited 10:39 PM
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Sunday, June 19, 2005
i slept at 5 n i'm up at 8 blogging now. juz cant slp. wad's wrong with me. sigh.
went ed's hse n had my drink. woohoo..
absolut kraut with sprite ice. we drank lyk only de bottleneck of tt dua leng gong. but it was gd. damn gd.
could only score fluke goals past him la. now he playin 4 strikers. four. wah.
alcohol clears de mind. i thot a lot alot when i was walkin back hm.
not tt i wanted to tink much larz...
='(
well. suppose to study. it's de last week. friday econs essay liao. i juz had to come n screw everything up now. dumb.
as usual.
pls drag me out to study. anyone. juz anyone. lit or geog or econs. i dun even mind GP. i juz need to get out n be with pple. hahaz. please.
fauwaz! drown! i treat u crysanthmum tea la. pour in glass mugs n it'll look lyk beer from afar. lolx.....
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WESTLIFE -What Becomes of the Broken Hearted
{Shane:}
As I walk this land of broken dreams
I have visions of many things
But happiness is just an illusion
Filled with sadness and confusion
{Shane (All):}
What becomes of the broken hearted
Who have love that's now departed
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
Maybe
{Mark (All):}
Fruits of love
Grow all around (all around)
But for me they come a-tumbling down (a-tumbling down)
Every day heart aches grow a little stronger(Just a little stonger)
I can't stand this pain much longer
I walk in shadows searching for light (searching for light)
Cold and alone no comfort in sight(No comfort in sight)
Hopin' and prayin' for someone to care (someone to care)
Always movin' and going nowhere
{All:}
What becomes of the broken hearted
Who have love that's now departed
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
Help me please
{Shane:}
I'm searching though I don't succeed(I don't succeed)
Someone's love there's a growing need(Such a growing need)
All is lost there's no place for beginning(No beginning)
All that's left is an unhappy ending
Unhappy ending
{Shane (All):}
Now what becomes of the broken hearted
Who have love that's now departed
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
I'll be searching everywhere
Just to find someone to care
I'l be looking every day
I know I'm gonna find a way
Nothing's gonna stop me now
I'll find a way somehow
What becomes of the broken hearted
Who have love that's now departed
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
Baby
Oh yeah
What becomes of the broken hearted
Who have love that's now departed
What becomes of the broken hearted
Who have love that's now departed
What becomes of the broken hearted
manchesterunited 8:50 AM
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Saturday, June 18, 2005
hahaz.........
Zhonghua Alumni Select 3 FC Genesis 2
yup. i let in 3 goals. only. haha very happy dunno y. although we lost. but it could hav been wayy bigger. with all de odds stacked against us.
yen lin was my left-back. decent job la. but we still lyk always 1 or 2 man down. anthony injured...............aloysious(?) coming late.........
starting still no ball. lolx. n got kao peh auntie.dun let us use field,but can use de rugby 1. strange. lolx.then had to throw some guys practising drop kicks out. haha.
n i'm playing against de zhss elites. got "foreign" talent somemore.
keeper samuel. nyjc number 1.
defenders chun teng kenneth wei keong nicholas.
midfield. wah. sin ting-srjc capt. boon han-ajc capt. guan zhen-yjc siao kia.
then got kelven n andrew up front. zhss top striker n ex-srjc star striker.
i only let in 3. wahahahahaz.
my defence not bad la. got stan. n wei feng. haha. n alfred! tt guy's damn gd la. haha w/o him i tink i'll be in a lot of shit. you wee.................reali small working radius...............lolx.
let in 1st goal's my mistake la. alfred's still behind,but i saw kelven(i tink) coming 4ward. so i left my posts n went 4 him.he skipped past me n centred 4 some1 to backflick it in. sigh.
2nd goal. quite soft actually. kelven again i tink..........shot..........i went 4 it with my left leg..............hit a lil,but not enuff to deflect it out la. i blame de rugby post 4 being so wide =p
3rd goal. corner. some1 on my left shot,i committed,thot he'd shoot straight wad.........budden it went over to my other post,so i was left on de floor when de ball went in de other way.
ARGH!
but dere were some nice moments......saving from sin ting twice in de 1st half.......then deny andrew 3 times.....lolx.....de 2nd 1 tink nicest.1 on 1. he shot high. i almost ALMOST flapped tt one. but clawed it back out n it went behind him,so no rebound luckily. hahaz.
u noe,de best sound u can hear as a keeper? when de opposing team start grumbling at their strikers "OEI lyk tt also cannot finish ah?? jerry only lei!"
shiok. lolx......shldn't get too hao lian lolx.
muz be de cereal bar got magic. hahaz............thanks......! i dunno if u'll read dis......haha........haiz.......dao me de whole day..hope i din exactly freak u out last nite hahaz......but i reali reali meant wad i said. ya.
ltr still got campfire......sianz....
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back from campfire.............
haha FC Genesis actually chose me as Man of the Match. lolx. heady feelin. hahahahahaazz.....
campfire quite fun la. with zhong n gang. reali let go. all de pent up frustration la. the tension after de match juz now. screamed! hahaz. shouted lyk mad. i was drippin sweat when i'm walkin hm haha.
ed's rite. not reali ignoring me....more lyk,tinking of de way to put it across. cushion de blow. dere muz be a blow somewhere la. duh. lolx. but i can take it larz.. after a lil absolut.....hehez..dun be sorry. dun ever be. tt word dun belong in de battlefield of venus. hahaz. at least we'r still frens ya.
y izzit tt normal girls dun like me,while all de wierd ones do. ARGH! WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME????????
i need a drink.
manchesterunited 1:52 PM
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Friday, June 17, 2005
haha............fun day........
took 3 million yrs to decide where we wanna go eat. juz me terry aaron kenneth simin n ingrid. ended up goin to de pirated version of sakae....suki.....lolx. it has 3 diff place at cine la,we went de sushi 1 opp de arcade..........ate farnie stuff la. took dumb videos. n looked at other pple.........when it isn't exactly right..........lolx.
then went c aaron dance para para. cannot take pics.........sian.........then kana ah lian diao.........lol.then played de table hockey shit. minzy play cheat! use hand de! but we still won =pp
ya saw xin yu!! haha...................naughty =p
then we went ingrid's hse to play bridge.
OMG.
2 black mercs 1 jeep. 1's SLR200 somemore. convertable somemore.got pool.got lawn.
n her room's lyk big la. fantastic Coca Cola collection. n walk out nia got lyk mini-bar. it's even better then chalet la.walk so long 4 de 7-11,n u still hav to pay n show IC sometimes.haha.
tml de gang's goin over to study again. too bad can't join 'em,i got lotsa activities of my own.........which has de potential to turn out to b v fun,or v horrendous..............lolx...........
1st. match. turns out to be............clash of de titans. n i happened to be called up by wei feng to play 4 you wee's team as keeper. sam's at de other side. with sin ting n all de other zhonghua pple in front of him. sianz!
then campfire. haiz muz still run back to yzps when north vista's so near my hse..........sigh.
n i drank coffee 2day.oops.lolx. i tink i recover liao lor....... hahaz. so can i eat my cereal bar tml? b4 my match? sorta lyk a gd luck charm larz. i need all de luck i can get. lolx.n we'll go mug on monday. i promise ya? hahaz.
manchesterunited 11:57 PM
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Thursday, June 16, 2005
haha.......went studyin again. bought gatorade......but tink de "magic" 's gone le...........ah.......
haiz.....2day then found out tt we actually din hav to be lik lil kids n sit at de colorful chairs n low tables.........which causes back aches.........lolx.......de sofas r sooo much better lolx..
met half de world at de library! 1st was ivan sittin at de cafe waitin 4 his laptop-toting fren. then it was wei feng's mysterious sms tt says he spotted me.................say wad, i flirting with girl.............turns out he was with a gal too. ah. de pot callin de kettle black. lolx. then saw zi jian! my Magic mentor lolx.
ate hokkien mee. lik damn long nv eat liao haha...n peanut pancake! she beat me twice............hungry ghost......lolx.
n y other pple burfday got cake de. hmph......hahaz.
oops some 27th guy pointed me to tt swee wei's blog. i juz did a v dumb post. hope dere won't be repercussions............lolx.
anyway. tml goin out with de a7a bunch! grp4 rox man. plus ingrid n angeline. yeah......hahaz. lookin 4ward.
n ed's back! i missed my bro. we went thru so much. hahaz..................
"and when u decide u want to spend the rest of your life with someone, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible"
hmm..............................
manchesterunited 7:54 PM
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Wednesday, June 15, 2005
hey.....
(haha de letter-writer's back.along with his dry wit.)
hahaz juz back frm amk.
morn woke up was lik shit. showered. i seldom shower in de morn. but maybe cos i was feelin lik shit le la.. so thot water'd wake me up. it did. =) new life lesson =p
weather suddenly turned chilly. luckily u din keep me waitin long. if not i'll sian diao. lolx.
back pain....heavy bag.....regret bringing geog......hahaz next time i noe.
gio kids. u zai..... shld hav wore og tee la u. we'll hav de whole hawker centre breaking jaws n cheekbones haha. okay la,gotta admit tt de lil cow was cute. hahaz. 1st time pple bring me go eat porridge sia. nice....but u shld hav gimme de yolk earlier.it looked unnaturally yellow when i added de thing ltr hahaz.......
n now i owe u a cup of sugar cane juice hahaz.
finished econs! even exceeded! hahaz. *sense of achievement*
n yup. de bar's still with me. i'll keep it v v carefully de la.......haha......but i fear i might eat it up when i'm sleepwalking or something =p
when i'm better. coffee's on me. u deserve it. 4 being so nice today. lolx....
haha. a v big thankew........... being sick didn't feel so good.....hahaz... thanks a million. =)
yours,
de guy with de name in purple =p
manchesterunited 5:49 PM
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Tuesday, June 14, 2005
juz back frm malaysia geog trip. details up ltr la. am still sick lik shit. keep ls-ing n vomiting.n orh orh-omg de whole of monday. lolx. dunno y juz started on baby-speak. already beginning to miss de a7a bunch..hahaz.
finally back,but still lik not free to meet up with some1....hahaz.ltr still got ns check-up.dunno how to go when i;m in such a state la. wah,naughty ah u,i gone 4 5 days nia u got scandal liao....sadded......=( wad's so gd bout tt swee wei guy? lolx..
right... am gonna pop a panadol n go zzz somemore....reali goin to die man. my stomach's killin me.
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panadol worked 4 a while la. hahaz. but it was de sms-es from u tt made me feel sooo much better. thanks dear =)
din go check-up.postponed it to 15th july. tink i freaked de operator out......i sounded lik i was gonna stop breathing de next second or something. lolx.
hahaz. actually finished tt bowl of mee sua juz now. yeah....
went to polyclinic la. 6.20! so blardi cheap! lolx.
yesh. goin out tml....=) study only la......hahaz.....
tink tonite muz go zzz earlier......get more rest......if not ltr tml teach wrong thing =p
manchesterunited 7:52 AM
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Tuesday, June 07, 2005
wazzy: eh wazzup dude. i dunno bout de predicament part la,but i noe how it feels man. sure,let's go drown tgt. no more long island iced tea.............tt shit sux man. tink i'll juz stick with bercadi lol. terry says venom's nice...............haha next time la............
ltr goin 4 jab at ttsh man. 40 bucks. wtf. but health's priceless. yeah.
n dere's starbucks in ttsh.hehez.
ed n i r gonna beat up ollie,sue SBS Transit,n burn down MOE. wahahhaha.
boring. so early come online dunno do wad man. sianz. sianz.
com'on guys. brighten up my day ltr when we meet up. it doesn't get more gloomy than dis.
mindless babbling. but somehow some pple will find dis entertaining. lik ed. de more brainless de better. lolx.
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watchin de hell show now. haha. so gan jiong,but ltr go m'sia how? can't watch lor. haiz........
hah today woke up so early,also nothing to do la. went to ttsh 4 jab. v fast over la,but till now left arm still lik sore la. n lik v v tired. ya. haha..
called up ed n navi. go out larz. haha. met wj n her claz at shaw hse dere......jaime n si ying......
turned down my coffee! i so sad lor. wanted to drown in mocha ice blended. too bad la,de "ran out" of rhumba. starbucks! lucky navi n ed,got a free cup of coffee over nothing. lolx.
then went to eat baked rice.haha.......not as nice le....sigh. last time de curry 1 nicer.....rmb,alvin? sigh. og4 Valeris lik dun hav gathering liao. all has grown so apart. de ogl has a big big part to play in dis la. sigh....
sianz. tml. goin off le. i dun exactly wanna leave. being away. 4 so long. 5 days lor. last week taught me tt a lot of things can happen in 5 days. sigh.
wonder hu will miss me. if it's no1......
haiz. feelin so empty now. my shadow's only one that walks beside me. my shallow heart's the only thing that's beating. i'd reali reali wish some1 out dere will find me. till then,i walk alone.
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=) haha someone juz sent me a song. thanks.! lyrics here. enjoy guys.
MANDY MOORE -Cry
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended too soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
The moment that I saw you cry
It was late in september
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But i was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring at a dark gray sky
I was changed
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
I wanted to hold you
i wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right....
I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon...
In places no one would find...
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
manchesterunited 9:49 AM
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Monday, June 06, 2005
haiz. feelin horrible now. not 4 myself la. but still. when ur bro's down, n u somehow had a hand in de build-up,which,muz be said,is a perfect move,beautifully crafted,n de goal was so................
ruthless. cold-blooded.
hard time tryin to link de act to de face. classic Janus man.
sigh. muz go sch. haha. thot of stupid reasons to convince myself to go sch,but still wanna go sch when ed broke all de reasons tt i came up with. strange. i've nv lik sch so much. hahaz.
right. c ya all............
hah hey ed. dunno la. mzybe not so stange larz =p
OG9 pple..........reali all 1 kinda pattern 1 ah? hahaz. tink nazgul's still da best. =D
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haha now it's 1600. juz back.
not bad la. 2day go sch tok to lynette bout council shit,learnt a lil rivers,then ponned econs. hahaz.
at least my trip to sch today not wasted lor. met some1. hahaz. worth it liao.
tink ed had de right to be pissed lor hahaz. asked him come econs lect last nite,then when he came in sch clothes we dragged him off. he din even set foot on NY lor hahaz. but i'm sure he doesn't mind missing a few dumb lessons larz =)
so went shopping lor. we lik gurls sia. can anyhow zoom anywhere to find stuff 1 lor.go j8 eat. sit at bishan mrt lookin 4 THE GIRL to stalk. lolx. aaron went home. wet blanket larz.. nvm. so we met dis AJ gal tt ed swore was staring at him at some debate thing last yr. hahaz.so off we went. tink she go town with dis guy,hu looks positively pissed off.........de girl was staring so blatantly la,it was quite a miracle her eyeballs din drop off n start rolling off man.
walked arnd. saw a bag tt was quite nice,70+. nike.grey background,orange stress. quite nice.de grey's a bit lik canvas tt type la,is fabric. c 1st la. although juz got bday ang pows,but money is not anyhow spent de. haha. i might pick up some rare finds in m'sia,u nv noe.
tt brings me to de geog trip. dammit.ng kim teck takan me lor,make me team leader. when i juz wanna go over n slack. haha. lucky all de grp i noe 1. besides navi n kaelin is kenneth minzy jiewan tse chiew n class la. so shld be quite alright haha. haiz. 5 days away from sg. haiz. will miss some1 lorz. =p hahaz.
ya. goin out. maybe ltr goin ed's hse 4 winning 11 again everytime........lolx. then tml meetin some parts of TXH 4 injection. 1345. then meetin ed navi n maybe kaelin. today look arnd le,tink tml we'll act upon our desires n open our wallets. boost C function. hahaz.
ehh. de coffee how?? lolx...........nvm la, if de starbucks promo end le,i'll still treat coffee la. my money wad =p
nice song on ed's iPod ah. enjoy guys........hahaz.
To Be With You :: WESTLIFE
Hold on little girl
show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
when it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you
Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
Wake up, who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I've seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you
Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
and I can make you start to smile =)
manchesterunited 12:17 AM
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Sunday, June 05, 2005
arise,NYJCians. no more sissys we r. woohoo.....lol. readin bulletins on friendster,n since more than 1 repeated bulletin came thru,i guess it muz be true. lolx. herd mentality =p
hey u. ya u. dun be sadded le larz. no la,it ain't wasted. dun say tt larz. it's a blessing under dozens of layers of disguise. hahaz. i promise it will be. lolx.
n ya. i wanna complain. bout de guy up dere who's in charge of bday wishes. lousy la.......haha..
haha. birthday. i simply luurve de feeling when de 7-11 guy ask 4 my IC n i juz shove it in his face. wanna check? sure..............................wahahahahahaha..n thanks guys,4 floodin my fone. lolx. am not gonna delete 'em soon lolx.alcohol's on me =)
campfire....not bad la. reali,potato has ruined my scouting career. if i reali quit 1 day,he'll be de major reason. ji xing told me :" do or do not. there is no try." when i told him i'll try to stay on,n c wad happens. he's too tall to be yoda la =p
Scout Hymn (1st verse)
Now as i start upon my chosen way,
In all i do,my thoughts, my work, my play,
Grant as i Promise, courage new for me,
To be the best, the best that I can be.
nice =)
monday. then tues. wed go malaysia liao. ehh,when r we gonna use our buy-1-get-1-free Starbucks??? lolx. gonna ga jiao u until u sian diao =p
manchesterunited 12:30 PM
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Saturday, June 04, 2005
hey:
i said i'll do it,haha........so here goes.......
to whoever's in charge of granting burfday wishes out dere:
i hope some1 gets to where she wants to be. maybe even higher,even better.
to whatever she wants la,n tt's gd 4 her la. =)
thot wad,u lost ur fone or something. busy schedule + distracted mind = not realising tt some1 else's staring at his fone n waitin 4 a reply.so bored. lolx.
morn wake up only sian. dunno muz go yzps 4 wad. ytd already nv go,so dunno wad went on. not tt i cared la seriously haha.
slogged lik mad,yet when i had to go off,not appreciated. still kana suan-ed 4 not stayin longer. ehh,from lik 2 to 8 pm la,n i dun stay lik within walking distance..............argh.
but at least u replied,n de day juz din sucked as much larz. =) n i noe u had to go off le when i came online la,but u still waited 4 a while n chatted. hahaz. thanks. i needed that.
n when 12 came i was with my ocip pple chattin.all damn lame lol. missed 'em a hell lot man.
haha. n thanks 4 de sms. i din do a v gd job celebrating ya burfday la,so i dun deserve a lot when my turn comes haha. well it's 12 now......2day's a big day.......all da best ya.
no matter what happens,some1 else's always dere ya? rmb tt.
yeah. love some1 lots. scared ltr she drown. lolx.
your's truly,
hu else?
appendix:
muz answer my taggers haha.
eh mardi..........no,i'm not tellin u,unless u tell me bout HIM. ya HIM. i noe lor. smsing with him right in front of me! how dare u! i'll whip u with my belts. while u'r handcuffed to de bed posts. =p
n ya,i'm not some1. haha.i dunno how some1's goin to communicate to u mardi.....hahaz.....i was so wols at msn juz now i cant believe it la! sry la....tired.......stressed........depressed......everything bout my life sucked,n if it wasn't 4 u i'd hav jumped of somewhere lol.
some1's my ultimate device 4 coping with negative emotions. i'm so thankful. haha. n tt explains a lot of things =)
.:: Èd ::. [.] it's easier to leave than to be left behind ; -> cfc-ed.BLOGSPOT.com <- says:
which is worse: to come so close but not to get, or to never seen it at all ?
if u come close, u'd wish u'd nv seen it
if u'd nv seen it, u'd wish u'd at least come close.
ya. which 1? haha. it wasn't grace.. it was cowardiance,escapism,de act of running away. n not being able to get angry at de guy tt i've treated even better than i've treated my biological sibling haha. i bourght it all on myself anyway, who's dere to blame? will anything tt i do change anything? if it's no,then,y bother?
lik shannon's famous quote......like?? so wad??
yup. so dun humor me..........haha. let's face it,n it's not de 1st time dis line's coming out.......i am inferior to u in so many ways. i might try catching up somewhere,lik Magic (lol....),but some place else......y walk into a massacre knowningly? a battle tt u noe was lost?
n ya,u'r welcome =)
manchesterunited 12:15 AM
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Thursday, June 02, 2005
haha,today shall try a new way of blogging. i shall write a letter 4 some1. hahaz. here goes........
hey:
didn't noe u were still out when u asked me to call u up. ya la,i needed to tok. bout wad doesn't matter to me any more. but thanks larz! most pple would hav lik "ltr la,i reach hm 1st then tok" or something. but u din.n u got a scolding by de bus driver 4 not scanning ur ezlink =p my fault la...................hahaz..n only becoz of last nite,i noe de latest buzz bout fauwaz..haha.
it's been a month? it muz hav been hard 4 ya. sry 4 not being dere. i din even noe la..haha nvm......
actually morn in sch damn sian la.i dunno y i even went lect. cept to c my wife mardi maybe. n fauwaz's prob. n ed's stories of his latest exploits lolx.
ya. fauwaz. hahahahahhahahahahaaaa...................pinky?? *winkz.
wah lau eh some kinda frens u hav ah,keep reading out recipes when we were starving...................lolx.......n researching on slimming methods? taking down notes somemore?? hardcore man lolx.
n u v lag la.........i was REALLY goin to beat those kids up le,n u din stop me at all =s
n it was potato wedges wad. wad fancy name did dey giv it ah? haha. we muz go experiment with all de kinda iced coffee dere is in de world sia. n my buy-1-get-1-free thing,we muz use b4 de 8th.....................hahaz..
no more cotton wool on open wounds la idiot. =)
not bad at all haha. i enjoyed our "2nd date" throughly. i sure hope u did........yah haha. did u? lolx. when then can we hav our 3rd 1? hahaz...
love ya. lots. hehez.
yours truly,
u noe hu la.
manchesterunited 8:12 PM
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Wednesday, June 01, 2005
haizzzzz...
ed: perhaps. perhaps. we'll c. no more double- or triple- strikes la.............haha.
jan: okay..........u reali dunno when got sch? go nanyangjc.org c la..........
well,today............i dunno y,but feelin a lil lousy now.. i'm worried bout my mei. n i dun tink she noes her kor is feelin worried. lolx. no kor in dis world liks to c his own mei being "conned". lolx.
went geog. ontime. wheel of reversal..........terry n aaron was late n locked outta de LT lol.gan came! wow.
then when aaron's hse cook lunch sia. lol. played a lil magic.
then went cp yoshi again. okay la,more productive than last time.i did some econs,taught amanda some rocks,n ed bought endorphin-inducing chocolates hahaz. shall not comment too much........ed ordered media blackout lol.
i dun believe in asking too much la. cos whatever pple wanna tell u will come out sooner or ltr,n wad pple dun wanna tell u,u ask a zillion times also u won't noe. lol.
now a bit understand y trade barriers r v impt. in protecting new industries. trade barriers shld be enforced. but i dun tink i can enforce them v well la haha. not against a v close trading partner lol.
go tink bout it. i tink de above analogy makes sense haha,if u noe wad i'm talking bout.haha.
hey thanks cindy...........i need a quick buck now n then haha. who doesn't? =)
manchesterunited 8:03 PM
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