jane used a term ytd that still stuck on my mind, i've no idea why. and that phrase is "spiritual blackmail".
hmmm.
manchesterunited 5:36 PM
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Tuesday, September 23, 2008
ahhhhh. contrary to my experiences with the previous essay for lit, now i'm running into the opposite problem for my PS essayS; not having enough to say! and i dont have any citations as well. noobie at research. argh. =X
manchesterunited 6:45 PM
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Wednesday, September 17, 2008
now that i'm just back from prayer meeting, and looking at the last post, i shall correct my own thinking.
thank God for giving me such a time of quiet without the distractions of a girlfriend (this line might come back to haunt me haha but never mind) to really concentrate on things that matter right now in this few years of my life; studies and ministry, both in church, and if God's willing, VCF as well.
and instead of lamenting on the situation where society has imposed upon such a troublesome routine of a courtship ritual, i should trust in God the same way Isaac trusted in God, that thru His amazing sovereign will He brought Rebekah to him; as i seek the Lord for His kingdom and righteousness, surely my God will bestow upon me my heart's desires, and what He has prepared for me will be the best that was, is, and ever will be.
thanks be to God in the highest. =)
i also give thanks that gloria has reached out to her junior, who has good and valid questions about our faith. it is indeed fun (to me at least) to play with all the theories and try to blast loopholes in pple's arguments, but the hard part for me will be to do all this with love and respect. as LT said, it is neccessary sometimes to lose the argument, in order to win the person.
another point that we're still learning bout is the balance between the quest for righteousness and meekness. on one end we see Jesus teaching us that if we're slapped on one cheek we offer the other. the other end we see Jesus angry enough to make a whip out of cords (scholars estimate the process takes half an hour) to get the money-changers out of the temple in Jerusalem. where's the balance? under what circumstances do we turn our cheek or make a whip, and what's the criteria?
LT offered the example of A slapping B, and C seeing it (pun unintended) B shld turn the other cheek, C shld get angry. defining variable being the target of the action; if it's personal, show meekness, if it's standing up for someone else, go ahead. but meiyun brought up a good point about standing up even if you're the target, but to stand up not for yourself but for righteousness' sake.
takeaway for me.... guiding principles may be good, but when they fail, always go back to the Word of God lor, especially when faced with a situation that seems to be in the grey area, and pray for God's guidiance in that specific matter.
manchesterunited 10:37 PM
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jay.ee.arh.arh.why. my soul is purchased by His blood; my life is hid with Christ on high, says: "ehhh ah seng from down the street talking to our ah girl leh. i think they marry lah!" mx`` can we sing, dance and not steal things says: hahahahha jay.ee.arh.arh.why. my soul is purchased by His blood; my life is hid with Christ on high, says: dots. (if only courtship nowadays is THAT easy.) (easy in all senses of the word; financially, emotionally, whatever-lily.) hahaha mx`` can we sing, dance and not steal things says: well said
judging from the time i shall refrain from launching into a tirade about the social constructs and norms of courtship behaviour, but mark my words, a long blog post is coming out soon about this. muahhahaha.
manchesterunited 1:26 AM
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Tuesday, September 16, 2008
new earworm after serving today at FT! too bad we didnt get to sing it!
Before The Throne Of God Above Charitie Lees Bancroft, Vikki Cook Key: D
Verse 1: Before the throne of God above, I have a strong, a perfect plea, A great High Priest whose name is "Love," Who ever lives and pleads for me.
Chorus 1: My name is graven on His hands, My name is written on His heart; I know that while in heav'n He stands no tongue can bid me thence depart. No tongue can bid me thence depart.
Verse 2: When Satan tempts me to despair, and tells me of the guilt within, upward I look and see Him there Who made an end to all my sin.
Chorus 2: Because the sinless Saviour died, my sinful soul is counted free; For God, the Just, is satisfied to look on him and pardon me. to look on him and pardon me.
Verse 3: Behold him there! the risen Lamb, my perfect, spotless Righteousness, the great unchangeable I AM, the King of glory and of grace!
Chorus 3: One with Himself I cannot die, My soul is purchased by His blood; My life is hid with Christ on high, with Christ, my Saviour and my God with Christ, my Saviour and my God
felt quite bad cause i was late and all that. and really didnt sing very well cause i was unsure of lyrics! but well like what i told mx,
"jay.ee.arh.arh.why. my soul is purchased by His blood; my life is hid with Christ on high, says: and the next time if ever i do it again i can only get better. haha"
yep very thankful to God for such a wonderful privilege, to have such a time to serve Him in my lil way. LT from rzim came to talk, on what it means to engage our minds in being Christians.
manchesterunited 10:47 PM
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Sunday, September 14, 2008
dedicated my life to God today at rev tong's rally, i sincerely pray that my Lord will, at His own discretion and timing, use me to do things for Him, no matter great or small. in the meantime i'd equip myself, to be a competent vessel in His service.
thanks for the supper, mr and mrs kuan! =D
manchesterunited 11:55 PM
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Saturday, September 13, 2008
i am so addicted to jason mraz's "i'm yours". currently leading the pack on my most listened to list in itunes.
lit essay. woohoo. was worried that i wont hit 700 words, it's only when i start that i realise that i dont have nuff words to crap. gotta stop close -reading, and start really answering the question!
great time at do-mi-so-so-do haha. thanks be to God. =)
manchesterunited 11:35 PM
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Friday, September 12, 2008
meiyu: i'm only next door from your house when i'm typing this haha. lenovo thinkpad, t400. havent gave it a name though, haha! not that i'm thinking very hard about it lah, but well if a nice name comes along then okay lor. my new wife lol, after 3 months of rifle J100 and one and a half year with B34. heh.
manchesterunited 4:43 PM
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Thursday, September 11, 2008
starting to feel the heat from sch work! essay+project wooo.
turned down room from sheares hall, i pray that it's the right decision.
just realised that i just paid for the dinner of two sisters just now aha. thank God for giving me this blessing to be able to afford treating them this meal then heh.
darius just passed me tracts for rev tong's gospel rally, gonna show my mom =)
manchesterunited 10:37 PM
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Tuesday, September 09, 2008
woohoo first essay coming up, lit. poetry PC, 700 words, due next monday.
somehow i dont dread it; more like a hao-lian session. but of course i must be careful not to be carried away. and not to let this complacency grab hold of me.
manchesterunited 12:26 AM
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Monday, September 08, 2008
i dont think you can lock posts on blogger haha. another point to take note of when i think of changing blogging space, but i very leh-chey lah. and i'm assuming not many pple read this space anyway haha. shall be super brief and sketchy, and lay out all my details only to my Lord in prayer =)
reality strikes; it's really another 4+ months of this.
it's more than a trial for just her; it's one for me as well? to trust that the Lord will really really send angels to watch over her and protect her and be with her. what can we do when we're here anyway. well, we might be totally helpless physically, being seperated by this distance, but we have faith in our God. isnt He the Lord, whether here or faraway? and so it just isnt her leaning on God; we're all doing it as well.
whole new definition of "being together in Christ" when seen in this perspective, isn't it?
darius was saying when we were leaving CSC; take this time when i'm still single to go chiong for things that i have the time to chiong for now; ministry in writing, studies, upgrading myself theoratically, spiritually, theologically. true. no more distractions for the rest of my first sem i guess muahaha. dont take my word for it tho! only by the grace of God that it'd be so.
school has been good. dare i say slack? it's true that i havent been grabbing hold of my time, put them into constructive uses. Lord, forgive me for all the time that i've squandered away, when i could have used them to do Your work.
lecture tml. this can go on but must control haha.
manchesterunited 12:28 AM
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Saturday, September 06, 2008
had a good sharing with our grp at shao's hse just now, thank God for blessing our time. hope the other grps' gatherings went just as well.
kept sneezing. not good. but God kept me going thru the rest of my day. so thanks be to God.
i've been sleeping later now that i've got my laptop. not good. but things that i've been doing are mostly constructive. so yay thank God.
tml's a long day. gonna miss two birthday parties of two frens, but sorry nothing personal, just that i've more pressing responsibilities to fulfill. but at least it goes to show that God's willing to use me for His ministries, so thanks be to God.
"The LORD is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation." -Psalm 118:14
